Today, I give up

I’m not sure if i’ll ever get better. It’s really frustrating when you have gone above & beyond to help yourself, done anything & everything to get better and years later, have nothing to show for it.

I have fundraised $10.00. That’s it. A big part of my failing fundraising efforts being I’m only one person and can only accomplish so much in one day- while being sick. Yes, there are a few great people out there who want to help, but I can’t get to the point where they can help. I don’t really know how they can anymore.

I’m sick and tired of being sick and tired. I don’t expect anything handed to me. I don’t want pity. I want to get myself better. I’m doing the best that I can.

 

I give up. I just hope that’s how I feel only now or today…and tomorrow will be another day.

Failure is a bruise

Sharing what it is like to live with Lyme disease & other chronic illnesses to spread awareness; health advocate;

3 Comments

  1. My half hearted attempt at fund raising has given the same results. I think you need committed good friends or family to do it on your behalf. I also think asking for money goes down better when it’s for ‘someone else’ rather than ‘me’. You need healthy people to do it, to organise bake sales and fun walks and all that stuff. Stuff we can only dream of.

  2. Please don’t give up. It’s tough, it’s hard, it stinks, and it hurts–I know. But please don’t give up! We’re all in this together. I’ll be praying for you!

    • Thank you both, it truly means a lot to me. It’s very hard when both of my parents are chronically ill so half the time I worry about them and taking care of them. My friends are in school or starting their first jobs- just starting their own lives. My friends and family have the best intentions and are helping me as much as they possibly can, I just can’t sit back and wait for things to happen. I have to give it everything I have all day every day. My body will not let me rest because I feel that I’m only wasting precious time.

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